Grip (Letter to Dad)

I've got no grip on reality
My anxiety battles me
Ion know what to do
I just call up my momma
So she can help get me through it
I really wish I could do it
But I'm not strong enough to
I thought that quitting my job
And having some time off
Would help to lessen my stressors
But now I think I was wrong
Cuz it wasn't affective
And so I think I'm defective
Don't get no sleep and I guess it's
Because I'm taking too long
I don't know what I wanna do with my life
My daddy want me Air Force
But ion think it's right
I know he wants the best for me
And I don't wanna fight
Cuz I made a 92 on that test
And I know I'm bright
But I'm more than just the military's vessel
I'm more than who you hear on instrumentals
I'm more than they expect of me
I know I've got the recipe
My life will be eventful
But damn it's really stressful
Cuz I know there's people testing me
But can't you see
I'm more than normal
Man I'm something special
Wise beyond my years
Far ahead of all my peers
I don't mean no disrespect
But damn it's clear
Yes I'm silly & I'm weird
But I'm really something serious

And like you I'm truly curious
To see what I accomplish
But man I get so furious
When people don't acknowledge
That I control my destiny
And if it isn't college
Then so be it
If opportunities begin to thin like their bulimic
Then I'll settle for what's left
And be the best & I'll achieve it
You just gotta give me time
Don't worry bout my future cuz I promise I'll be fine
I walk a thin line
But I know I've got the balance
I can tackle any kind
Of challenges I'm talented
I know it's by design
I'm youthful & I'm truthful
And I say what's on my mind
My honesty's astonishing
Refuse to tell a lie
Unless it's to protect
Then I regret it & I cry
But father I'm your son
And you should know I'm gonna shine
In whatever I do
So I'm gonna prove
That I can be the best in my field
I confess I'm a mess currently
And I reveal
That I'm broken
But I'll heal

And then I'll be a force to be reckoned with
I don't want you to choose for me
Yes you can beckon it
Nudge me in the right direction
If I requested it
I know I can achieve perfection
Or something next to it
But I just need some trust
I'm soon to get a grip but first I must
Take some time & be myself
I love you man
Thanks for all your help



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Writer(s): Daylon Munoz
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