Permanence

I watch the stars as I sit on the ground covered in glass my emotions are never found

I read through your bloodshot eyes
The lines your constantly trying to hide
I'm sorry I can't take you out of your bind
Your eloquently passing me
Driving me to be enticed

Reminded by everything you believe in
The reasons we walk alone is because the world neglects us
Believing every lie ever spoken
I am just hurt

It's crazy I didn't think I'd be in the position I was
But seeing your eyes in the moonlight let me know the feeling was true

I hate myself and keep screaming I wanted it to

My voice cracks
When I'm trying to describe the help I need
I'm banging and scratching at the door that's locked behind me
Visualize an exit
And that's me

You're inevitably the best your shortcomings
Bring upon something I want to help you express

If it's ever too much
Don't be afraid to let me go, everyone does in the end and it's all I've ever known

I dream about being able to lay by your side
And gaze into your eyes to let you know that you'll always be my guide

I dress myself up
In every word you've thrown at me
Lust into the worlds
The words are blinding

I can't remember
The words
You told me
But I am here waiting for you to come back

Don't try to disguise the feelings I try to hide
I'm empty
I say this every time
I'm lost without you by my side