Looking Down from My Watch Tower

Lost my focus for a second
The road here was hellish
A lot of foes turned out to be selfish
Now I'm standing over them
In my watch tower thinking
To myself what happened? What happened?
I use to kick back and chill with the homies
Now I'm telling myself where did they go?
Where did they go?
I look around to see the empty In my watch tower
I look around to see the empty In my watch tower

I thought you were my ride or die
I thought you would be there when I needed you the most
Now It won't be the same these Freniemes
Always trying to test me
Just yesterday my boy said pay no mind
He was telling me it's up now my brother
But it don't feel like it's up now
Time passes by stress only
Elevates and the brain starts
Levitating hustle and determination
Is all you need to make it from the bottom
I been tired of the dirty work
I done been through so much pain
Making music at the cost
Of my mental health people talking
Like my life is televised
Maybe someday I'll find peace

Ever since a kid I had it rough
Always tried to keep my chin up
Racing to the end of the tunnel
But that shit felt like it was never ending
Stuck up in the system
I look at my moms face, I look at my dads face
Then I look at myself like why me?
Like why me?
I'm sorry I let you down sorry
I can't be the man I was destined to be

Lost my focus for a second
The road here was hellish
A lot of foes turned out to be selfish
Now I'm standing over them
In my watch tower thinking
To myself what happened? What happened?
I use to kick back and chill with the homies
Now I'm telling myself where did they go?
Where did they go?
I look around to see the empty In my watch tower
I look around to see the empty In my watch tower

This is my story, my life keep tryna keep up
But got left behind a lot of burdens
Inside I keep tucked away a couple
Nights of the cold couple nights
With no sleep they kicked me when
I was down they kicked me when all
I wanted was a friend
Somedays I wish they would understand
What I go on about it's like I'm explaining
It to brick wall always putting on a act
Like they cared or understand
Maybe I'm just fooling myself I could
Be paranoid I just don't know anymore

I just don't know anymore
If it's fiction or non fiction if I'm in my right mind
Or in a virtual reality if I'm getting closer
Or drifting away somebody let me know
Because lately I've been talking to myself
And myself only

Lost my focus for a second
The road here was hellish
A lot of foes turned out to be selfish
Now I'm standing over them
In my watch tower thinking
To myself what happened? What happened?
I use to kick back and chill with the homies
Now I'm telling myself where did they go?
Where did they go?
I look around to see the empty In my watch tower
I look around to see the empty In my watch tower