Forfeit

Yuh, yuh, yuh
I'm sitting in this bed crying why am I not dead
Nigga you heard what I said you called my problems infrared
Why don't you ever listen man I shouldn't have to beg
It's hard for me to function with the lies that I've been fed
Now my heart is made of lead you wanna lock me up
Even though you aided and abetted
Some things I said even though I'm right, I still regret it
They say I'm too lit I can't see where I'm headed

Eyes blocked up can't see past the tears
I feel like I'm sliding I can't change the gears
This ain't the life I want to live I got nothing left to give
I try and face my demons, but I'm paralyzed in fear
I had all this opportunity
I still took the pills, I don't want no cheap thrills
Man I'd rather just kill myself
Put my life on the shelf

Let me tell you I'm tired my pain it is dire
Why can't I go and just burn in this fire
Why can't my body just let me expire
I been wrote the letter It made me a liar
Can't work on myself guess I'm not for hire
Believe me, I've tried
It's a strain on my mental, I need me a rental
I try and keep up, they keep changing the tempo

I just wanna see a mirror and have somebody smiling back
Last time I seen that migga I ain't even keeping track
I speak straight facts I'm off the hinge no casket
You know I'm going up, quit asking
I woulda multiplied with you, bread basket
Then you started to oppress, no savage
Bet on me, just call me Zack
Bitch don't ever call me back
Last time I opened up my heart froze like Dak

I'm tired of feeling all the wrong things
I'm tired of your broken apologies
Your tears they are empty, still wish I was 6ft deep
The thought comes five times a week
Your smiles don't erase the past
The pain you caused, yea that's gon last
The remedy is not so fast
But is it even worth it
I just know it better cuz God won't let me forfeit
I gotta leave this pit, just call me Tony Dorsett

Is life even worth it

Why won't God let me forfeit