Bus Back

I'm on the bus back, take a hard look at myself
Do I love this any more or did I do this for wealth?
I watch the tape back and see someone else
If that's me then why's it feel like a shell?

I say this here and they gon' say it sound old
But I feel like I've changed, I gotta do what I know
It's not for you, this for me to get a grip
'Cause there's somethin' in my ear that keep on tellin' me to quit

My whole life, my feelings always like this
Never say it out loud 'cause that make you a bitch
Plus, it ain't about you when someone's sick
And your time together might be gone, buddy, if you flinch

I'm head down, a hundred twenty in the bump
Numbers goin' up, line around the block, knew what's up
They talk about the talent, they don't give a fuck
I get home and realize all that shit, it ain't enough

They want more and I gotta open up
But for me, that shit's kinda tough
I might be in my head for a minute
But I be back before the track finish

Don't worry, I'm good.