Clean

Heart beating fast, less like a drum
Quickened pace, more so a creaturely hum
I asked the birds they said come on
Looked at the sky and they were gone
Experience this heart of stone
A couple months and we are all fucking alone
I spit out the words, you chew my thoughts
Spoon-feed me kindness so I can swallow all you've taught

Two songs were sung beneath eyes tearing
Wrapped up a year of all my fearing
Love don't exist and if it does then I can't see
I know my eyes aren't blind, my heart must be

I'm having dreams in black and white
The colors faded just before last Friday night
Picked up a phone, my mouth got smacked
Started talking then all my fingers cracked
The world is fading fast they say
Well we should speed things up to not get in the way

Of something that's waiting to happen
Cleaning the past as if a napkin
Fold it up clean so that nobody could have seen
The mess you made before you sewed that seam

Playful shouts, smoked filled cars
Rooves of leaves and halls of tar
The beds a mess, the sheet came off
The strangers scratched, I got a cough
I hope the screams they hurt your ears
And hair greases your face
She fits in just fine right here
One more creature to join the race
The boy's dirty smiles, the cringe on my face
The concept of wanting, and lacking of space
I miss the taste when it was new
I swallow sometimes, it reminds me of you
An early Sunday, a song in my head
A few wasted months and an unmade bed
A picture on the wall drawn young
Last initials for the two with one
A time when everything was new
Smiles and pride
A room full of blue