By Your Side

I know I see right through you, but still, I'll be here by your side
I swear I never knew you, but you claim you were ride or die
So what's it really mean to you
She words you spoke if those fell true I
Just hear it like a lie through the windows
Distant feeling like leaves when wind blows

I don't even understand how could you
Be so cold, thought we're meant to
Walk away not afraid, in this life like
I watched you play your cards right
And I ain't hear to watch everyday we're feeling lost
In dismay of what it cost, as I lay here and I rot
Broken open, I just see them hopin', my eyes close good I
Don't want to be the one you looked at
In pitty when you look back
And I guess it's kind of hard
So I don't need to be the one you look to
And I don't want to be the one you lose to

Every single day I hold close, the memories that fade so far
Wonder when I find I can let go, but I don't see the day that starts
I feel like, I know, whatchu got and I know, whatchu feel
It's all so, broken, and awful
Don't tell me how to think I'm not ashamed
And don't tell me how to feel I'll walk away
You pray on the weak and you watch from the sidelines
Open up your eyes, little slaves to the hive-mind
Don't tell me how to feel