818 interlude

All the people I've loved
Loved the bottle more
Last was him my senior year
And the ones that came before

Hiding under my covers
Hoping he don't come in
Cause I'll have to listen to things he doesn't mean
But they sink in
Yeah they sink in
Like teeth into an apple but they aren't crisp or clean
Sometimes things aren't as good as they seem

They're dirty and aggressive
I am obsessive why can't i just tell him to leave
Woah
Woah, woah, yeah

Moments I never thought I'd have to live through
My best friend on the floor i'm so fuckin' scared to
Check on her pulse the police said i had to
Alcohol swimming through the air, I smell you
I smell you

I'm crying, I'm shaking
I'm calling, no answer
That drive to her house I swear was slow as cancer
Killing me it usually takes ten minutes
How long's it been? Fuck, I really am in this

I've gotten used to flying alone
Travel so much, don't know what is my home
My family are passengers on these planes
Closer than my own blood, it's insane

And this year promised to be good to me
So far, it's been hard
I tell myself that it's worth it
Will it be worth it?
I'm scared that it won't be worth it
I'm scared that I won't be worth it