Rainy Dayz

They wonder what my life is like
Just tryna take care of my family so this I sacrifice
Maybe my next life I'll get it right, So I'm giving up
Giving up this live so I can pay the price
So let me write this letter, I wish my life was better
I can tell ya, you can hear my cries like it's acapella
This shit is deeper than they thought doe, dealing with this mindset I'm in I'll crash this car doe
Had attempts on my life, I'm thinking suicide
Attempt 1 I slit my wrist, but I'm still alive
Attempt 2 let me crash in this median, didn't work guess it's just my obedient
Attempt 3 I guess it's just wouldn't work, tried to hang myself 3 hours right after church
I think he got a different plan for me
Imma try to live this out since he's a fan of me
Months go by, depression is getting badder now
I can see the grim reaper, cause he's the batter now
Feels like my life is ready to shatter now
Think I'm at the point where this don't matter now
You can see I'm trying just seeking help
Tried to call ya phone last week, you wasn't there
I knew you wasn't never there
Well I'm gone wish you were just well aware

I'm going through these rainy days
Dealing with depression and pain is something you can't escape
Just thinking that my life a maze
Wished I could go back in the day, drinking my Minute Maid
Wonder why my life was dark, Feel like you played a major part
Wished we didn't drift apart, Wished I could come back and you show me you have a heart

You wonder what my life was like
My life was good, we used to do everything in hood
Made some moves, we'd laughed till we couldn't move
Used to play them b-ball games, we couldn't lose
I couldn't tell if something was really wrong
You played it off well them days you wasn't at home
Guess it was deeper than I thought doe
Seen you driving home, could've swore you crashed the car though
Seen you calling my phone, I couldn't answer
Was at little sis recital, she's a dancer
20 missed calls, it had to been important
Didn't think you're time was becoming shortened
Called ya phone, guess you just didn't answer
Maybe you was busy, heard you was romancer
30 mins passed by, you didn't call back
Heard you was singer, maybe you're dropping a track
It's been a hour okay I'm getting worried
I've been drinking all night, guess my vision got blurry
Thought you was drinking out ya styrofoam
Cause every time I call ya phone I get the dial tone
Didn't think you was out seeking help
I tried to call ya phone this week, you wasn't there
This I wasn't well aware, got a text said you was gone, this life ain't fair

You're going through those rainy days
Dealing with depression and pain is something you can't escape
Just wonder why ya life's a maze
Wished I could go back in the day, drinking your Minute Maid
Wonder why your life was dark, Feel like I played a major part
I Wished we didn't drift apart, Wished you could come back and I'll show me you have a heart