blind in the snow

So you've gone away
But I still wait for a glimpse of you in a vacant room
I've never known the words to say
So I've stayed up for a sense of truth
But hate the thought of waking up alone

Hope will hide those thoughts that would eat at you
But I won't manage to see it through
I hate the truth of waiting under the gun

I'll go far away from the place I knew
But I won't manage to see it through
The weight that grew too heavy to bare it alone
I wish it would go
I've lost the hope
I'm gone

I want to wait but I still hate what I did
To prove myself to you
Is there still hope that this can change?
I'm wondering what it meant to you
I hate the thought of waking up alone

Hope will hide those thoughts
That would eat at you
But I won't manage to see it through
I hate the truth of waiting under the gun

I'll go far away from the place I knew
But I won't manage to see it through
The weight that grew too heavy to bare it alone
I wish it would go
I've lost the hope
I'm gone