Five

Paranoia's starting to settle in again
Question is, do I let it win again
Considerin, the life i'm livin in
Survival rates are thin
The deep end closes in
I've forgotten how to swim
The tides they pull me
Don't have the strength to swim a shore again
I'm sure in for a whirlwind
If i keep on breathin, pleadin for this fuckin
War to end
I'd rather die than live
Mum and Dad weren't ready
For a suicidal kid, but then again
No one really is
Often haunted by the shit i've lived
Imagine growing up a mad, sad kid
Constant back n forth, with suicidal thoughts
Fighting your inner demons
Whether you're awake or sleepin
Wantin to intervene the little peace you seek
By taking a piece of me, repeatedly
I wish they just defeated me
My head is dreaded by this imagery
Thoughts so twisted see them spillin
Out from me, grabbed that razor and
Pulled it horizontally, hopefully
This the last you hear from me
Admittedly, I wish I left with more of me
Now my memory
Is a gory scene
Buy hey at least i'm out my misery
Heart racing, vision blurry
In and outta, consciousness I,
Think this is it, the end is nearing
With any luck now, the final shudders
Before I shut down, the tunnel lights up
My lights they dim out, don't feel a thing now
I feel at peace now, I start to slip out
The curtains close out, it's been a good bout

Look what's come of me
End what's happening
Eternal peace i seek
Not far from my reach
Look what's come of me
End what's happening
Eternal peace i seek
Not far from my reach
Look what's come of me
End what's happening
Eternal peace i seek
Not far from my reach
Look what's come of me
End what's happening
Eternal peace i seek
Not far from my reach