Lets Play Pretend

I'll always remember the first memory of a dead man in my eyes
The stare of a thousand yards, no soul, all I see is a shell

We never had any time for goodbyes

They said one in a million would make it
What makes you so fucking special
You always say that you walk with God
Well if Gods your friend, you can fucking keep him

I feel it scraping against my ribs
Clawing it's way out
I don't think I'll ever feel the same again

Countless nights spent in terror
Laying as still as I can
If you don't make a sound, you'll live another round, praying I die in my sleep instead

Praying I die in my sleep instead

I feel it scraping against my ribs
Clawing it's way out
The part of me that comes from you
Tears me open from the inside out
Thoughts of a time before this terror began
I just want to go back
Back to playing pretend

Nights spent wishing I could get the days back
Or at least wishing I could rid the feeling
I lost part of my life as a child
Now I don't know who I am

Nights spent wishing I could get the days back
Or at least wishing I could rid the feeling
I lost part of my life as a child
Now I don't know who I am

Who am I

I feel it scraping against my ribs
Clawing it's way out
The part of me that comes from you
Tears me open from the inside out
Thoughts of a time before this terror began
I just want to go back
Back to playing pretend

I'll always remember the first memory of a dead man in my eyes
The stare of a thousand yards, no soul, all I see is a shell