Sad Inside

I've gotta stop trying to be someone else
All that is probably bad for my health
Sitting here thinking I'm good enough's slowly been killing me draining me giving me hell
How can I try to be somebody else
All I know is that I'm mad at myself 'cause everyone else is accomplishing things and I'm tryna be social
But nothing can help
I don't assume I'm in need of a pill but if it'll change me I think that I might
I can't even look at myself in the eyes
I'm scared my reflection might tell me I'm fine
This is a problem for people with everything
All of my worries are narrow I know
But I know that there are some people like me who've been driven insane cause they're in the same boat
Probably they even wrote the same note
Probably we're on the very same page
'Probably' causes the probable cause that I'm probably causing this very emotion
I'm hoping the reason for this has an answer that one day I'll be in the seat I can solve it
I see the solution they tell me it's simple
I live with a curse and I know what to call it
I play the victim blame myself fake morale hate the system chase around the idea of ideas not being hostile
Ponder the impossible I'm tryna make it out but I never had luck
I'm never giving up 'cause I never had a choice
Yeah I never chose life but if imma stay living then I'm gonna do it my way
When people looking me sideways I say

All clowns are sad inside I'm told
I do this for the ones who feel alone
Never let your inner voices crush you
Live your life for all the ones who love you
Live your life for all the ones who love you
Everybody's got something to run from
I just hope I got someone to run to

Anxiety amplifies everything and I don't even have the worst if it
The only emotion I know of that kills you but actually has a few perks
Introspection is a lesson learned almost every single time I get to thinking
I humble myself when I get to drinking 'cause I worry bout everything I've been mixing
I don't drink away the thoughts of second guessing 'cause nothing gets rid of those
At a point in my life I've been dying to know if the state of my sanity's critical
I can't even assume what I'm saying is really me or the depth of my lyrics is really deep
I don't know if I'm actually feeling me or the man in the mirror is really me
I don't know if I'm rambling or if the people around me'll actually hear it
It seems like the closer I got to my graduation I was losing track of those I love the dearest
I'm tired of telling myself I'm okay
Tired of pushing my loved ones away
I know it's okay to cry but wouldn't have tears in my eyes if I tried
So wait what in the world is my problem
I feel I can only express it through poetry
Nobody know's it until they hear vocally
Now they're afraid that the jokes are imploding me

All clowns are sad inside I'm told
I do this for the ones who feel alone
Never let your inner voices crush you
Live your life for all the ones who love you
Live your life for all the ones who love you
Everybody's got something to run from
I just hope I got someone to run to
All clowns are sad inside I'm told
I do this for the ones who feel alone
Never let your inner voices crush you
Live your life for all the ones who love you
Live your life for all the ones who love you
Everybody's got something to run from
I just hope I got someone to run to