Identity Crisis, Pt. 2

I don't know who I am, so who am I
I spent these last months in the clutches of these expectations
I made 3 projects, scrapped 'em all, because I thought they'd hate it
Then writer's block swooped down on me, so I had started making
Generic anthems fueled by lack of imagination
Then Bryan, told me Justin, you could do better
That's like my brother, it cut me that I ain't knew better
Reached out to Vic's engineer with hopes to reach to new levels
He never hit me back, my ego became too shattered
My relationship with TeiJah quickly deteriorated
We broke up, and I spent my nights alone over thinking
Thinking of her while I sat in some other women faces
I felt disgusted with myself, no matter how you shape it
I distanced myself from the people that I cared about
Used music as an excuse, but I went through mental bouts
Felt that I wasn't enough
With the pressures on my back
To make it rap in a year
Cause there's no going back
I refused to be one of the dudes that ain't progressed,
That's why I made this too, shall pass and SPOTLIGHTS, I confess
I prayed to God more than ever, to get weight off my chest
I felt like I exhausted life and there's no living left
Even with barely traveling, knowing there's more to see
With music, I was consumed by it, it's my everything
I spent my whole life thinking that this was meant for me
Now I'm looking at streams, like, is this it for me

Been through many phases
Like I run through laces
Adapt to all changes, otherwise you're lost in mazes
I'm Neo in The Matrix fighting through a sea of faces
With every step I'm taking, feels like I'm holding the aces
Acclimated properly don't you agree
Fell through the cracks
And not one stain is stuck to the tee
Parting the sea, Moses to me, reincarnated
Since a teen, I always felt I was God's favorite
This remind me how it was in 2017
When Jaymie passed, I felt that I had lost everything
Forgot my lyrics on stage, thought it was it for me
Lost TeiJah right before Noah had dropped Misery
I ain't 'fraid of losses no more, I see life in that
Still rose above through it all, I guess the dark is back
Rose in the concrete grown, it's thorns are still intact
Readdjust is coming real soon, it's time to run it back

Who am I?
If I look in the mirror and I break
Who am I?
If everything I wanted's not the same
Who am I?
If I prefer the passion and the pain
Who am I?
If my words are the matches to a flame
Who am I?
If I got what I wanted and I dreamed
Who am I?
If I'm the one they wanted me to be
Who am I?
If I'm afraid that I'll never leave
Who am I?
I'm not afraid no more, I'm Legacy