Caged

For the nth time I thought my next breath would be my last
To be honest, in the past I was scared of death, but this once.
Not death itself but the pain that would come with it
But when you face it, you become so numb, that you just admit it
And you're left thinking like "this is it?"
Yeah baby, it's already half-past eight
Go brush your teeth, it's sleep time now
It's too late
And only then, when it's usually too late
You get a clue how short a lifetime is
Now that I remember that I am mortal
I can no longer waste my precious time
Trying to seem so perfect
Damn, no one really cares right?
But, I feel so tied up, that even my face gets tired of fake smiling
And I hate that! It's not me, who is that?
But I always picture myself in their eyes
Judging myself from the outside
Just like a spy in disguise
Trying to seem someone I'm not
But the only thing I have to hide
Is that I locked myself deep inside
Let me out, let me free
I know you have bare dreams
But you'll never ever be
Who you set to be without me.
Hear me out, I know you can
I'm a lion full of rage
Stuck inside the smallest cage.
Let me out, I cannot move
Let me out, I cannot breathe
But I trust you, I believe
To think what others think is so daunting, exhausting.
It's such a waste of time, it isn't paid work
I'd rather live my own life, how I wanna live it
Because focusing on you is a dead end
No one on their deathbed would recommend.
I can never please the whole crowd
Yeah it may be cliche
Now that I said it out loud
I see why things are called that way.
Because for God sakes
We keep stepping on the same rakes!
May be after all, it's not all wrong
Maybe it's how it should be
Guess this is how we learn
When I implied that I locked myself inside.
It's true, that is what I feel like
Because the real me, she's stuck
Locked in a booth, and it sucks
I can feel her passion
I can feel her anger
She's banging on the door
But I can't really hear her
So stand behind the booth
Cold sweat, I don't know what to do
Scared that those bangs will start fading.
If I don't prevent the suffocation
I put my ear to the door to listen
I think I can hear something
Let me out, let me free
I know you have bare dreams
But You will never ever be
Who you set to be without me.
Hear me out, I know you can
I'm a lion full of rage
Stuck inside the smallest cage.
Let me out, I cannot move
Let me out, I cannot breathe
But I trust you, I believe
Every time I had the urge to break free,
I was paralyzed, did not succeed

But, I am not the type that gives up
That easily. Because I have a reason to, live,
A dream to be me, to succeed and SEIZE the moment!
Because it's time to break that -
Pattern. And step on that path and
Be who I set out to be
Do you hear that?
Wait I found the keys in my pocket
Gimme one moment
Okay, I'm back
Now I'm holding the keys
Twisting and turning with ease
And Unlocking that door with a breeze
You're free, you can go, you can leave!
I am FREE