rinse and repeat

And its the same process every time
I miss you and feel lonely until i ask if you have time
We meet and we have fun, drink ourselves out of our mind
But the next day i just always feel like i wanna die
Waking up next to you makes me feel like someone, worth your time
But i lose hope when im on the way back home, the busride sucks everytime
All i wanna do when i get home alone is throw up again

I dont understand why i still get nervous
Ive been here thousands of times i should know this
But the way to youre house still feels like a maze
Through insecuritys and self doubt and this egotistical phase
Waking up next to you makes me feel like someone, worth your time
But i lose hope when im on the way back home, the busride sucks everytime
All i wanna do when i get home alone is throw up again and again and again...

So i feel like I'm stuck in this neverending cycle of excitement and being sad
Everytime i get to you im happy but when i leave im always down
I dont know if theres another way to say this
But i feel like being with you wont make me happy in the long run