Peace Of Mind

Pull back the curtain, gotta' be certain
That there's nothing hiding or lurking about
Hard as I tried, I can't deny
I don't feel alive more than half of the time
It's time to face it, this face is a farce
I spent ten years dancing around in the dark
I disappear and I lose my spark
I'm only ever present living in the past

Yeah, I've had enough of this
Standing on the precipice, gotta take control of it
Yeah, making a mess of it
When I said I tried I really meant it
Damaging friendships, hope to try and mend it
Thanks to all my friends for being there when I need it
Yeah, maybe it's time
Gotta' find myself a little peace of mind

If the fall didn't hurt then it was really worth nothing
Grazed knees are okay as long as I'm still walking
It's hard to believe that God hears me talking
The only thing that's certain is the falling of the curtain
Therapy on Monday is keeping me sane
If you ain't making mistakes don't be expecting things to change
Life's a game, we don't get a say in whose playing
But fucking bite the bullet brain because I'm staying

Yeah, I heard your words but I don't really need them
Repeating yourself makes my ears start bleeding
I don't want to be rude, I'll be me, you be you
Awake on the first, asleep by the third
Dead by the fifth, alive on the sixth
I don't think I can live like this
Spent the day dreaming, awake all evening
I'm still breathing, I'm still breathing

My vision was blurred, wanna' be heard
Your words were slurred, I know we deserved so much more than this
Picking up the pieces of a life and its grief it's important to remind me
I'm still fighting
No denying, I'm not lying
Better state of mind, well, yeah I'm trying
When it's quiet, I'm deciding
When the curtain comes down, man
I'll be smiling