Desert Within

Eyes closed, exhausted, fading in desolate cold
Devoured by torment as despair takes ahold
Will the angels break my fall as I collapse in doubt
Tell me, will the pain be spared when my body hits the ground
I can feel this envelope still weakening every hour
Despite all its frailty, I can't let anguish turn sour
The cradle of my grief has become a sore
But I stay here ill and broken in my dead empire

I struggle in my war to find the strength inside
I keep returning to the wasteland

The saturating sickness from a wretched fall, consumes
In the hold of my shadow lay these wretched ruins
As merciless the battle's length I'll keep my yearning drawn
Gathering what little strength I've left to carry on
I pray for hints of light to reach my cursed depths
Will I ever find relief from my worst regrets
As pages of my life burn down motive has left my side
Despising to hold on, yet hope survives

When my broken mind releases all that I thought mattered
You collect the pieces of a heart that has been shattered
From dirt and dust to glory rebirth will set me free
Remade into the story that I was born to be
In the grip, in the hollow of my restlessness
Where your grace overshadows my hopelessness
Deliverance grows from the desert within
I'll try to make it matter before I see the end

Weakness or resistance to the brawling chains inside
Retained in the substance of my bittersweet demise
A dose of deprivation to numb enduring pain
Inject a vicious poison to swallow down my shame
Unwell in a prison made of my favorite mistakes
Stones atop of stones for this place to become my grave
Will this endless season ever be cast away
Will I finally witness freedom as my cursed cycle breaks

I struggle in my war to find the strength inside
I keep returning to the wasteland

Falling again, always craving the pain
I won't submit to my addiction
Falling away, always craving the pain, but
In the hurt I know that the healing has already begun

In the grip, in the hollow of my restlessness
Where your grace overshadows my hopelessness
Deliverance grows from the desert within
I'll try to make it matter before I see the end