Hall of Mirrors

I wish I was tranquil
As a sweet summer breeze
Blowing through the trees
Instead, my brain is filled
With visions of black
Of the beauty that I lack
Oblivion is my only escape
From the perfect ideals
That haunt every screen
Every day when I awake
The image I see is a stranger to me

Call me obsessive, call me vain
But these feelings never change
My reflection's my greatest fear
I'm trapped in a hall of mirrors
Insecurity blurred my eyes
Tear ducts are working overtime
My vision will never be clear
Cause I'm living in a hall of mirrors

My imposter pushed you away
Like torrential rain
Washing you down the drain
I know that I'm a disgrace
For wanting to erase all the features my mother gave

Self-deprecation I depend
I laugh with you and just pretend
I wish I could disappear
But I'm trapped in a hall of mirrors
Self-medication is my crutch
The nicotine is not enough
To numb the pain of eleven years
Of living in a hall of mirrors

Starved myself for three days straight
There's not a part of me that I don't hate
Manipulation is my medicine
I couldn't care less who I am within

Call me obsessive, call me vain
But these feelings never change
My reflection's my greatest fear
I'm trapped in a hall of mirrors
Insecurity blurs my eyes
Tear ducts are working overtime
My vision will never be clear
Cause I'm living in a hall of mirrors

Time to grab the bull by the horns
Take a hammer to the mirror and be reborn
Give me seven years of bad luck
I'd rather risk the superstition than fuck this up
Or I'll keep it to myself
Stay locked in my room
Put my thoughts on the shelf
Like I always do



Credits
Writer(s): Louise Hudson
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