Oxygen

Colder than the wind, blowing on my skin
In a situation like this, it's impossible to win
Popping pills like candy, sweating it out
I really need to stop thinking out loud

Singeing my hair, burning my clothes
The way that they talk makes me feel so alone
I'm always replaced, always second best
Maybe I should put my thoughts to rest

Hooked up to my I.V., trapped in the bed
My head feels so heavy, my blood feels like lead
Maybe it's not oxygen that I'm breathing
Maybe I am the reason you're leaving

Sleep is for the weak and consciousness is for the worst
I bottle up my feelings until I'm about to burst
You mean so much to me, so dear to my heart
No wonder when you left, I fell apart

My room is in flames, cauterizing my wounds
Subjecting me to my certain doom
I'm always replaced, always second best
Maybe I should put my thoughts to rest

Hooked up to my IV, trapped in the bed
My head feels so heavy, my blood feels like lead
Maybe it's not oxygen that I'm breathing
Maybe I am the reason you're leaving

Plaster on a fake smile, you've done this all before
Take your morning cocktail, you always ask for more
Why am I here? Should I cross the bridge
I never thought I could get you so bewitched

I know I seek attention, I need the validation
In order to be stable, I need to be able
To feel like I am loved even if I am wrong
And the only way I can express this is writing a song

Hooked up to my IV, trapped in the bed
My head feels so heavy, my blood feels like lead
Maybe it's not oxygen that I'm breathing
Maybe I am the reason you're leaving

Hooked up to my IV, trapped in the bed
My head feels so heavy, my blood feels like lead
Maybe it's not oxygen that I'm breathing
Maybe I am the reason you're leaving