Reckless

Been trying to keep my head up
But honestly I'm fed up
Surrounded by a cloud and I ain't talking about the weather
See I have to hold it down
I crawled up off the ground
But I ain't even happy even when I got the crown
So they ask about depression
Don't want another session
It wasn't me who did it but I guess I learnt the lesson

See I don't feel a thing
'Cause honestly I'm numb
I thought you'd live forever and I know that
Sounds dumb
But I'm drowning in the love
And I can tell it's fake
'Cause loss brings lies and trauma brings snakes

And a lot of true colours
I hope you didn't suffer
And I know you didn't mean it but you left me in the gutter
Now I don't know what to do
The fuck I'm supposed to say
The story stays the same
'Cause I didn't see a face
'Cause all I saw was smoke, I couldn't scream I choked
I dropped down to my knees kinda which I hadn't woke

Now I feel reckless
Weak under pressure
It's like I got a death wish
And I know that's selfish
I'm tired of the pain
There's no one here to blame
And life goes on but it'll never be the same
Give a fuck about sleeping
You ain't even breathing

We could've had it all, it was you I believed in
Give a f about sleeping
You ain't even breathing
We couldn't had it all, it was you I believed in

Now I feel reckless
Weak under pressure
Its like I got a death wish
And I know that's selfish
I'm tired of the pain
There's no one here to blame
And life goes on but it'll never be the same

So now I feel reckless
Weak under pressure
It's like I've got a death wish
And I know that's selfish
I'm tired of the pain
There's no one here to blame
And life goes on but it'll never be the same
I told you slow down
'Cause they ain't even on you

I wish you would've listened when I saw it, I could've stopped you
You were so stubborn
A fighter not a lover
I can't talk about the past 'cause when I try, I stop stutter
But what about the future
'Cause I don't think I want one
It's true what they say you know love when you've lost them
But what about the future
'Cause I don't think I want one

It's true what they you know love when you've lost them
But, just look up to the skies what they telling me?
But it ain't fair that all I'm left with is memories
So fuck therapy I put it in a melody
I promise I won't stop until I built you a legacy
Just look up to the skies what they telling me
But I don't care about the envy or the empathy
I cling to what we had so desperately

I made you a promise that I'll build you a legacy
Now I feel reckless, weak under pressure
It's like I've got a death wish
And I know that's selfish
I'm tired of the pain
There's no one here to blame
And life goes on but it'll never be the same
Give a fuck about sleeping
You ain't even breathing

We could've had it all, it was you that I believed in
Give a fuck about sleeping
You ain't even breathing
We could've had it all, it was you that I believed in

Now I feel reckless
Weak under pressure
It's like I've got a death wish
And I know that's selfish
I'm tired of the pain
There's no one here to blame
And life goes on but it'll never be the same

So now I feel reckless
Weak under pressure
It's like I've got a death wish
And I know that's selfish
I'm tired of the pain
There's no one here to blame
And life goes on but it'll never be the same