AMID.NIGHT

So what's it gonna be man?
Neither?
You do have to choose at some point
But what if I don't want to?
Then you're gonna end up right here again
But do I even?
Wait what just happened?

WE HAVE A MAJOR MALFUNCTION
I REPEAT, A MAJOR MALFUNCTION

Oo What a breath of fresh air
Wasn't aware that it was so potent
You Seemed to help me pick up the pieces
Never puzzled by my demons
I was so open to
Making you the one I believed in
More than friends fam or anyone
Knew you loved my soul
I couldn't let you go
Down that path heading to your demise
Mesmerized by what was so broken

I got so focused
On stopping your pain
Whenever you called out my name
Loved pulling out my umbrella
But in blocking the rain
We ended up drowned as ever
Or maybe what we bonded over, kept us bound together
I've heard that hurt people
Seem to repeat the cycle
Tried to build you up but I felt (Eiffel)
We ain't tower, we spiraled
And I knew regret wouldn't bring happiness
So I kept stressing, it could be best if
We could reset and run it back again

But nothing would change, it would end in vain
Old flames went up in smoke
I rushed to cope, didn't know what to do
Was I never enough or too much for you?
I was so in shock when you broke it off
I stayed at your place for two nights
But we kept in touch, I was still your crutch
When lonely nights came through...

I did to, but I wanted to quit
Didn't want to exist in this sunken abyss
But when then all clicked, it was suddenly brighter
I took control, got a hold on me
See I could own my peace
And get lighter as I roll my... (Bzzzz)
"We definitely should. What you doing later?"
I lit up when I saw your text there
Guess I'm bouta take another breath of fresh air

I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be
Stuck amid nightmares
That are haunting me

When'll I be free?
I know I oughta leave
Cause I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be

I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be
Stuck amid nightmares
That are haunting me

When'll I be free?
I know I oughta leave
Cause I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be

Drug down to the depths yet again
Lie still as dust settles in
Leave - that's what others recommend
But it seems like this cycle doesn't ever end

Raging pain remains so devoted
To make this brain comatose
It's hard to find high hopes at my lowest lows
I feel like it'll take a lot to get over those

Dead family, overdue bills, and fake friends
Fuel depression that never makes sense
Ever since the last disaster
I've had enough interruptions
Gimme something of substance

Cause lately the cost of living's been rough
Whatever was sufficient isn't enough
I've been slipping
Into different pitfalls which involve
ATMs and going through withdrawals

Still figuring out how to deal
Tryna operate
Even when scatterbrained
I try to concentrate...
Don't ever wanna find another reason to stay
Forever in the night I need an escape

I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be
Stuck amid nightmares
That are haunting me

When'll I be free?
I know I oughta leave
Cause I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be