I Should Be Happy

You're gonna hate the way I sound when I'm laughing
You're gonna hate the way it blends right in
It's gonna turn into piss poor decisions
That everyone makes now and again

I hope that you see right through me
And all of the shit that I've said
The problem is that I've been waiting
And you haven't said one word yet

There seems to be a lack of communication
And it's doing the opposite of pulling be in
Don't get me wrong I've been here before
This is the part where I give in

Just say that it's not working out
It would cause me a lot less pain

Turning the pages
Of low aspirations
When buildings are falling
And you hit the pavement
And purposely changing
To fit in the pieces
Of puzzles you made us
When we were all children

You're gonna hate the way I sound when I'm crying
Captures the essence of fake
Watch as I sink to the bottom
Of this hole I dug by mistake

I hope that you see right through me
I deserve a lot more than this
At least the chance to be happy
Not this fake shit you try to admit

I hate it when one side is trying
And the other side begs you to quit
A Lot of unnecessary fighting
A relationship gone to quick

Just say that it's not working out
It would cause me a lot less pain

Pretending you're smiling
To save you some face
When I know that you're hurting
At least what you say
But you could just be lying
It could be a game
Fucking emotions
That get in my way
Trying to be honest
I'm trying to change
Fuck it who needs this
I deserve to be happy