Trust Me I'm Trapped

Can't do relationships, my hands are tied when hell is frozen
I change to self destruct inside, in silence way too often
I'm happy to be here though, you trippin, I never lost my focus
I made my inside outside, I treated everywhere home
Been doing the same relationships, my hands are tied when hell is frozen
I change to self destruct inside, in silence way too often
I'm happy to be here though, you trippin, I never lost my focus
I made my inside outside, I treated everywhere home, yo
(Let's do this)

Trapped in my ways, stuck in my ways, I can't be mad at that
After today, it's nothing but pain, I think that I'm accident
Prone, too many things that remind of you, I need to have you back
They took my brother, they took him away, and I can be mad at death
Trust me I'm trapped, I feel alone when I'm feelin afraid when I'm feelin attacked
Let's leave it at that, he was just 19, we spent 5 days in our masks
Trust me I'm trapped, trust me I'm trapped, trust me I'm trapped
They took my brother, they took him away, I need you to have my back

I'm not religious, but I was just praying to God
Tell me it's fake, that it's bullshit and lies
I was just with him, he couldn't have died
We was just talkin bout New Years, we head to New York and I saw a lil spark in his eyes
I snapped a picture, I told em I loved em, I'd see him again and I hugged em goodbye
Tell me it's fraudulent, 60 minutes later Timothy called me, he couldn't stop crying
Keaton got hit by a car on the way to the airport, please stop him he couldn't have tried
Side of the highway, I'm only an hour away n I pray that they saving his life
Homicide team on the way and the ambulance came been the moment I knew that he wasn't alive
I can't get ahead of myself
Shit, I just broke down in front of my mom and I couldn't believe it
I had to look in the sky, I was praying to God that he'd tell me a plausible reason
Tell me I'm dreaming, I lost three friends in one year for two reasons
And I'm getting scared, if I lose another I might fall apart
When I knew demons, I had to kick em out of my life
That shit'll stick, I had to buy time
All upside down, gone in recovery
I know that he said it again that he loved me
But I didn't think that he'd be there above me
I don't trust many dudes but I trust him with everything, on my life
That's my biggest fan, that's my best friend
Til death'll do us part, I'm in the deep end
On god, I don't want shit to be perfect I just want it fair
I'm prayin you saving some feathers for me, you the best at the gate, we could fly up in there
I am somewhere there stuck between healing and fucking around off the map and hurt all of my peers
This was first ever out-of-body experience, I'm way too ahead of my years

Trapped in my ways, stuck in my ways, I can't be mad at that
After today, it's nothing but pain, I think that I'm accident
Prone, too many things that remind of you, I need to have you back
They took my brother, they took him away, and I can be mad at death
Trust me I'm trapped, I feel alone when I'm feelin afraid when I'm feelin attacked
Let's leave it at that, he was just 19, we spent 5 days in our masks
Trust me I'm trapped, trust me I'm trapped, trust me I'm (R-Radio)
They took my brother, they took him away, I need you to have my- (Please leave a message after the tone)

Why are you, uh, you calling me?
If it's about you tryna play Mineman
I will be on in approximately, I don't know I'm gonna shower
And then I'm gonna grab a snack-a-doodle, a.k.a some food
Then, then after that, I will be downstairs to play either some Mineman
Join the discord server and scroll through Twitter
Or I will just watch YouTube depending on who's online
Alright!
I also have to write for Aziz's verse
Which I have not started doing, son of a bitch!
31st is on Wednesday, I'm leaving you a message (N-N-Naturally)
Even though you said never mind sir
Okay, goodbye!