Where Are You, Mr. Fears

Maybe I was too clingy and aggressive
Maybe I scared him by being too crazy
Maybe it was too weird to see up close
A friend from high school he thought he knew

He might have sensed that
What I was about to go through
Was more than he could bear

So he left behind the jacket
And the hundred bucks
I promised to pay him for it
And he never came back again
Writing me and the money off as a loss

While I was trying to find my way
I showed him who I really was
It must have freaked him out
To see the kind of dumpster fire I really was

I thought he'd always be there
But I was wrong
I showed my inner turmoil
And he was gone

He drove away on his motorcycle
And I never saw my best friend again
Sometimes I think about him
What did I do or say exactly
That was so bad he left forever

All you had to do was show up
I was waiting for you
But you never did again
I thought that we were friends
What a fucking fool I was then

Change before his eyes
A life threatening fire of tears and confusion
May as well leave that behind
May as well leave that behind