My Whole Life

They say the land of the free home of the brave
But this ain't land of the free this is home of the slaves
Home of the caged immigrants
Home of the paid public servants shooting its citizens
Looted indigenous it's systemic
The government love it when we're kept stupid and ignorant
Who is the villain when we confused by the news reel
Don't know if the news real
Focused on the Green trynna come up with New Deals
While still tryin to heal
From filling unfulfilled plus the family drama
And I keep skipping church don't be mad at me mama
Think my sanity's gonna come into question soon
Everyone around me is changing life's a dressing room

Anxiety made me nervous
God gave me a purpose
But my feelings of uncertainty worry me as I search it
Anxiety made me lazy or maybe I got ADHD
But I'm having a hard time concentrating
When I know they killing brothers in the hood like Zimmerman
And killing brothers in the burbs like Zimmerman
No matter what community you or me could be living in or visiting
We end up in the same damn predicament
That kind of conditioning breeds
Not only athletes and MCs
Also MBAs and PhDs
Or entrepreneurs who ain't never get degrees
Teachers and counselors
Lawyers, chefs, dancers
Probably the person that's gone end up curing Cancer
Odds stacked against us
But we fought back, word to Panthers
We kept praying but we also took action

I been praying my whole life, yeah
My whole life
But that ain't work 'less so did I
So did I
I said I been praying my whole life, yeah
My whole life
But that ain't work 'less so did I
So did I

Let the beat breathe

Though your heart might be heavy with sadness
You still gotta be ready for action
Know what I mean

Pain and aggression
Enraged in a mess it's
The same thing I felt when
The blame was in question
For 2 of my best friends
Who suffered from depression
So bad that they took they own life unexpected
Unanswered questions I'm left with
Like my Aunt Cheryl
I live in constant fear of who the next is to exit
This world
Before my love gets professed and
That's selfish but damn I can't help it
To think this way
The homies say it's gone be okay
But I know that's just the thing to say
When you know somebody's hurt
But you at a loss of words and what's worse
Is the ones who feel it the most are not the ones who deserve it

Anger in my questions
Every time I pray up to the Heavens
Like how the Hell evil people getting blessings
I guess it's part of your plan but I don't get it
Who am I to judge? I'm still out here making messes
Mirrors still crack when I look at my reflection
'cause the man staring back ain't make a good impression
Opened up the Bible hoping I could find suggestions
I'm left with more questions then before I read it
Agree with the message, unsure bout the Method
Man when it comes to U God you Ain't Nothin to F Wit
Always giving lessons I fail to pay attention
Just throw my 2 cents in when I know it's more expensive
I'm stressing

I'm stressing
And these are my confessions

I got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me

I been praying my whole life, yeah
My whole life
But that ain't work 'less so did I
So did I
I said I been praying my whole life, yeah
My whole life
But that ain't work 'less so did I
So did I

I got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me
I got some issues that nobody can see
And all of these emotions are pouring out of me