Far Away

Enough of that I can feel it creeping in under my skin doubt
Oh yes there it is again
She tell me I deserve her there's no way I believe that
I feel like a child with nothing to offer
I'm on top and she tell me get off her
Think back why did I say that
I need something to kick back why do I need that
Oh no emergency I searched for so long
For someone I'd let help me
Until I push away get far far far away
And that's where you stay
I don't want to play these games
Sticks and stones what you need from me
Someone to poke fun at or throw shame at
So you can make everything my fault take the blame off your back
I thoroughly respect that did you not expect that
Can I ask you a question
Have you ever woke up on the floor of your front porch
With none of your clothes on and don't know how you got there
I'll explain this later my mind is racing
I'm in a million and one different fuckin places
You ever cried cuz you can't stop killing yourself
Real slow like a rolled cigarette so it drags longer
You ever wish that you could be stronger
Please would you stop that don't patronize me
If you want to antagonize me write a book
Beautiful ass piano play me out
I should retire cuz I'm played out
Dancing off stage cuz I'm played out classic unable to love
There's a hole in my heart and no one can fill it
Drown in out I won't feel it that's the only good feeling
Don't know what I'd do without someone to complain to
Take everything at face value instead of trying
To understand what I might be going through
Have you ever chose a vice over someone you thought was the love of your life
Have you ever said deal with that shit I won't change
You can try and teach me patience
But let me roll up this new strain
And blow it right into your face
Like you don't want this smoke
Have you ever felt so alone you try to talk to yourself and you don't
Have you ever made the same mistakes over and over
And expected a different result
Have you ever