Deep Inside

Deep inside I've always felt lost
Deep inside I always hold my thoughts
Deep inside I keep my heart locked
Deep inside I knew he paid the cost
Deep inside I knew his life was lost
Deep inside No way that I forgot
Deep inside I still see the spot
Deep inside I still here the shots

Still hurt me to my soul like it was the other night
I know he tried to fight I know his body tried to fight
They filled him up and left em there like he was ah sacrifice
His homie ran and left just ain't ever seem right
He was just taking you home but he lost his life
Cold blooded they ain't hesitate to up the pipe
Shocked at the sight couldn't even cry that night
Christmas in 4 days man that shit ain't feel right
13 in em got no choice but to take flight
Lil Marley only 2 his daddy ain't come home that night
He don't remember but I do gone stay with me for life
Don't ask me how I feel ima always say I'm fine
But when I close my eyes I'm thankful that I'm still alive
They shot through the floor could've took my brother life
Had to wake our mama up she was tucked in tight
Somebody banging on the door it just might be our time

Ma went to go look I followed stayed by her side
I can't let her go alone bout my mama ima ride
We heard the cries from outside
Familiar sound we opened wide
What I seen that night really left ah nigga traumatized
Man I'm hurt inside that night it was a triple homicide
Lick went wrong that ain't mean that Jamie had to fucking die
Wrong place wrong time got my nigga disqualified
In this game of life tell me how tf can I play right

I just understand wtf was going through they mind
2 more were people upstairs guess the shooter had went blind
But when he walked outside his eyes had started working just fine
And his aim so precise nobody could save his life
I'm speaking to the mic like Durk but still feel the pain inside
Murder on my mind know what it's like when yo nigga die
Was at his house all the time
Luh smoke was my ride or die
Y'all stayed right down tha street we used to always be outside
When we stayed in Ingleside earlier that year I almost died
Got Pneumonia in both lungs I had to stay In over night
I was 8 years old and I almost lost my life twice
Tell me how you can compare to the pain I hold inside
I tell people that I'm quiet
I tell people that I'm shy
It's really ah lie I just don't like to speak my mind
I be showing fake love to some people don't know why
Maybe cause Ik everybody ain't always on yo side
Niggas got they own agendas even day 1s switching sides
Everybody say they slime that don't mean that they gone ride
Keep yo circle tight only take the ones you know gone grind
Can't be trusting everybody I'm really one of ah kind
I can read people real good so I know who really slime
I can read people real good taking who gone help me shine
I can read people real good so I know when niggas lying
I can read people real good ain't no need for even trying

All that capping shit is pointless try to keep it out my rap
I know y'all like to turn up I'm story telling turn up that
So y'all can hear the pain I'm speaking for the people in the back
So don't expect too much guns... killing and all that
I like the truth honest dude might throw on ah top hat
If u don't get it he on ah 5 Ik you know bout that
Especially when you down bad and that's all you got for gas
Down to your last the impact of being broke will always last

Deep inside I've always felt lost
Deep inside I always hold my thoughts
Deep inside I keep my heart locked
Deep inside I knew he paid the cost
Deep inside I knew his life was lost
Deep inside No way that I forgot
Deep inside I can't forget the spot
Deep inside I still here the shots