Less of a Man

Why am I screaming
(Why are you crying)
Why am I screaming
(There's absolutely no reason to be crying)
Why am I screaming
(You just need to toughen up)
Why am I screaming
(And make sure none of them see you crying)

Let's stop ruminating on the subject
Whenever I make progress there's another moving object
And when I overthink, I think I erase the prospect
It's okay to be angry but you're not, you're disappointed
Now you wanna take the crown from those you appointed
You know there's deeper meaning
Can't help feeling it was pointless
Damn there's some things I need to work on here
But still I ain't souless, that's priceless and timing was timeless

And I won't stand it when you leave
And I can't stand it when they leave
I didn't like it when you left
I think I cried when he stopped holding me
I think I was always in his arms
There was a time when I was safe and I was armed
Shit the anxiety is a charm
And I'm here panicking in your arms
You put me under a spell and now I'm disarmed

Do you like me less now
Because I showed you that I can be weak
Do you want a strong man, a strong hand, healed, perfected
Mastered a mindset on fleek, I'm intrigued
Do you like me less now because I showed you that I can be weak
Do you want a strong man, a strong hand, healed, perfected
A Man, but what about Me

Trigger trigger trigger trigger
Blowing these shots at myself in the mirror
I need some self love in myself that's bigger
Than the love I have for anyone else and that's a killer

Trauma Trauma Trauma
I held these thoughts in my mind like a hoarder
I'm down on my knees and I'm pleading before her
I need some chains on my heart like a border

I'm not a big fan of this song
I feel like less of a man in this song
Truth is shit hit the fan for this song
That was part of the plan with this song
I'm not a big fan of this song
I feel like less of a man in this song
Truth is shit hit the fan for this song
That was part of the plan with this song

I've struggled to voice my opinion because
there was a time when I thought it didn't matter
Mustn't backchat, back to my room
As if I couldn't overhear their aggressive chatter
But time's changed, it's time to recognize a past, heal, earn, self love
We've both been through hard times life is tough
And my voice wasn't big enough
Even when I dialed 999
The cord was plugged

And I won't stand it when you leave
And I can't stand it when they leave
I didn't like it when you left
I think I cried when he stopped holding me
I think I was always in his arms
There was a time when I was safe and I was armed
Shit the anxiety is a charm
And I'm here panicking in your arms
You put me under a spell and now I'm disarmed

Do you like me less now
Because I showed you that I can be weak
Do you want a strong man, a strong hand, healed, perfected
Mastered a mindset on fleek, I'm intrigued
Do you like me less now because I showed you that I can be weak
Do you want a strong man, a strong hand, healed, perfected
A Man, but what about Me

Trigger trigger trigger trigger
Blowing these shots at myself in the mirror
I need some self love in myself that's bigger
Than the love I have for anyone else and that's a killer

Trauma Trauma Trauma
I held these thoughts in my mind like a hoarder
I'm down on my knees and I'm pleading before her
I need some chains on my heart like a border

Why am I screaming
(Why are you crying)
Why am I screaming
(There's absolutely no reason to be crying)
Why am I screaming
(You just need to toughen up)
Why am I screaming
(And make sure none of them see you crying)