I go to sleep

Another night of me
Looking out the window
When it's dark I feel no issue
I'm conflicted with my issues
The sun it hurts my eyes
I might being going blind
And the constant pain of thinking
Has destroyed my agile mind

I'll stay inside, I'll stay inside
Cause there's nowhere left hide
Cause I'm running out of time
Yea I'm at the finish line

Perhaps another drink
But I don't have a link
Separated from reality
Got no sense of hospitality

Happiness inside my mind is trapped inside the hidden door
And the constant state of grief I have just keeps on wanting more
Maybe pass the time with something
But I can't think of nothing
A common problem for me
It happens all a sudden

I used to contemplate the bad days
But now it seems like everyday just blows right past me
I just wanna the traffic light to turn red
At Least then I'll have a chance to look
Back before this ends

Not a single friend
We're just acquaintances
Yea I dowse the pills with alcohol before I read the side effects
Double xans inside my system
Yea it's feeling great
I promise that I need em
I don't need all this hate

I'm feeling distant from myself
But it's not like you could tell
Things they ain't going too well
I don't have a soul to sell

I'm left with nothing but my sleep
But it's not like I can dream
I don't think that I can dream
When I go to fucking sleep

But I
But I
I can feel the pain is rushing through me
I go to sleep but the voices follow me
I go close my eyes and I try to enjoy
But I'm bombarded by these sounds that I've coined
I'm sick of the noise

Every night
Waking from my slumber every night
Not really something I suggest you try
Cause I got bloodshot eyes
I lie about my mental health and go about
Saying that I'm alright

Fuck the time
Cause I'm just awake
All the fucking time
I just sit along the wall and let the tears roll down my eyes
Personified
By the aching pain I'm getting in my head
It's a constant state of nature that I always fucking dread

Trynna mend
All these bonds that I broke in the past
But I think I've reached an impasse
My life went by so fucking fast
I got nothing to show for the past
For the past

I ain't no man behind the mask
But I doubt my emotions will remain intact
It's fucking sad
It's fucking sad

I ain't no man behind the mask
But I doubt my emotions will remain intact
It's fucking sad
I'm fucking sad