Purgatory

This is not what I wanted
What my life has become
Not what I wanted, not what I wanted at all
And that bright shining prize
I've been competing for all my life
It really don't matter too much to me anymore
Cause I been alive long enough to figure out
Winning the Super Bowl ain't what life is about
Life's about blame, shame, remorse, and regret
If you live long enough, you'll agree with me I bet.

If this seems way too pessimistic for you
That's alright, I was an optimist too
I did everything I could to retain my rosy view of things
I guess I was destined, destined to fall, anyway
If I could have been a little stronger then maybe I might
Have avoided this fate which plunged me into darkest night
A night of wild-eyed confusion, when comes the dawn
I lost everything, everything that I depended upon

The question becomes how to extricate from the pit
It's a baffling and bewildering predicament
All my smarts so far and my strength have not availed me much
2 step forward, 3 back, that's my luck
This is the highest ladder I've yet to climb
I don't know what I'm doing just experimenting all the time
Maybe one day I will happen to get it right
And live once again in the brightness of God's light
And live once again in the brightness of God's light



Credits
Writer(s): Jeffrey Smith
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