o.o.m.b. (oof! ouch! my brain!)

Steady dragged through the muck by the throat
Only getting to laugh when it cuts me the most
So chemically ravaged, I've been begging to have it back
Dedicate passages to medicine aftermaths

I been doing ok, I been doing ok and I know I'm getting better
Fuck you talkin' bout, everything's grey?
I've been so out of my body, assuming it was the weather
I squeeze my way through the fog and i leave my basis to charge
I'm in a state of mirage, I'm only half way here!

And I ain't even trying anymore, scooting along, a little slimy on the floor
Haven't showered in six days, but that's okay, 'cuz I'm getting closer to dying than before
I'm lining up to score another lick of my god, get a mirage, and giggle with a twist of a sob
Missing the odds of actually healing, I'm affixed to the promises of twisted logic and noggins dipped in the blots

So hot that, I'm melting! I'm just fucking sludge!
Watch me lie down for hours and get nothing done!
I'm crushing functions up to dust by sucking scum through musty blunts
'Cuz what's the rush to muster fucks when nothing been combining to mean more?

You ever wake up in the morning, but it feels like you're still dreaming
And that just kinda goes on for the rest of the day?
Then you try to fall back asleep and sit in blackness for hours
But it doesn't seem to matter, 'cuz apparently, nothing's fucking real anyway

I'm gonzo! I'm fucking done, bro!
Melt through the walls, melt through the clock, melt through the only honest narrator that you got
My marbles have fallen through the wormhole
Living life so bad for me, cuz I'm hopelessly addicted to the apathy

I'm trying to waste my time
The rainbow haze gave me way mo' days to maintain feigned claims of "it ain't no thing"
My mind: erased by pipelines
I just wanted to dream, and now I'm living a nightmare, I'm scared of my bare vision and white squares

I never wanted to know so much, I never thought that I could pick up the phone so much
Been stuck in the zone so much that i slip into the scene if I'm broke enough
I just let the day fuck me up, 'cuz I got too close, and the rays of the sun
Made something of me, haven't been a human since, it's absolutely ludicrous, eh bud? still love me?

If you could picture your life at a dutch angle, maintain the frame 'til it fucks up and mangles
Your sense of reality - ope! that's me! all because i wanted to know that dream!
Again and again, god it's enticing! how could something so pure ever spite me?
And imma stumble around, looking for answers but somebody needs to tell me "you never had a chance, sir"