Afraid To Feel

For all the people that are struggling with different mental illnesses

18 Years of my life
Living with pain and grief and strife
Living in a loveless world of old lies
While I gotta smile and say that I'm fine
While I gotta wave and say my goodbyes
While I gotta push my feelings way down
Fam just firm it, it'll be fine (Ayo Blaize, keep it up)
Please and thank you all the time

Nah I'm not thankful
For the heartache and the breakups I dealt with
I'm not thankful
That I'm fucked up but I dealt with it
Nah I'm not thankful
For the cynicism and the apathy
You're causing this tapestry of this life I'm in to get frayed

Now people always think that I'm this happy personality
As bubbly as a man can be
The nicest when I want to be
But what they do not see is all the shit that makes a man like me
I'm tired of these appearances
I'm hurt but no allowances

When will it stop?
I feel old now, I don't need this shit
I just wanna breathe and shit
Take a chill pill and not feel this shit
Can you just stop?
Just take a minute and listen to the silent sounds of the subtle screams inside of me
That cry to me saying the wanna die to me now

Did a lot of things in my past
Broke a few strings in my past
Tore a few wings in my past
And I'm not proud of it

Now I'm done with the ways of my past
Put no blame on my past
Learn from the mistakes in my past
And now I'm proud to be

Living in the world that we live in
Dealing with the people that we deal with
Ruminate on everybody's wickedness
Feel a little tickle from my feelings
But still I stay positive

This world will chew you up 'til it's sick of you
Look you up and down and probably spit at you
But you gotta bide your time and remember
That you gotta stay positive

Honestly it's not okay to hide from your feelings
And you should definitely find
That special someone to talk about all the shit that's on your mind and
If there's one thing you're gonna take away from this song it should be
Don't be afraid to feel



Credits
Writer(s): Tega Amrore
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