Love is a Lie (feat. Phillip Joubert)

I wonder if we really want to seek the mind of God
Or do we see a thing and then assume what he wants
I wonder if He said to go a way that seems insane
Would we have the humility to say yes and trust
Do we believe God is in control?
It seems we believe He's hiding in a hole
Man God is on a roll
Do you see it?
What a time
Did you seize it?
This is the season
I done seen families restored and hearts healed
I done seen a lotta money made
It starts here
Let them tell it... I should fear nothing more than covid
Then I caught it
The next day I was over it
Had a little headache, tightness in my chest
But, wearing a mask can't protect you from stress
We gotta stop embracing what they project
Treating it as law
When really it's a setup
Lately I been doing more declaring than explaining
The wounds of a friend are faithful
Not enabling
So guard your heart
And be mindful of who moves with you
Focus on building legacy and your immune system
Everyone's offended
Everybody's correct
Everything is content
Everything is a check
If you don't quit your job and chase a dream
You don't mean it
Was writing 16s, with a 9-5 and a kid at 19
I don't regret it
All your rules and your standards
I don't accept it
It's so pathetic... and so in essence
The god of this nation Is comfort
What's your greatest possession
Your wants or wanting nothing?
Folks wanna police everything
We all know that y'all don't fool with 12
These mirages and facades y'all massage
Are starting to come down
I advise you, don't Fool yourself
Left a church I help built...
And everything I thought I knew about the Lord changed
Greatest thing about it
I ain't bitter towards the body
I'm invigored
Not a victim
I bounced back, I'm inventive
Ain't invincible
Though my pain tolerance is high
It's a cheat code knowing that Adonai is nigh
My whole life I've been learning home ain't here
But the key knowing home ain't fear

Thought it was what I needed
Swore that I believed it
But it was just a lie

Gave it everything I had
Until it drove me mad
But truth can't be denied

Thought it was what I needed
Promise that I believed it
But it was just a lie

Gave it everything I had
Until it drove me mad
But truth can't be denied

I'm wiping tears from leading worship for some breakthrough that I couldn't get
They said He paid it all so why I feel I'm still in debt
Looking for counsel, and met with a shrug
I guess I'm not as anointed as y'all thought that I was
The final blow was pastor looked me in my face and said I'd never change
Told my wife to leave me then he turned around and walked away
So no, I don't go hard for the church 'cause it's been good to me
I go hard for the Body 'cause I know what she's supposed to be
I know firsthand how damaging being abandoned is
Being told you're destined for greatness then kicked to the curb
So logically you look for grace beyond the four walls
Only to find out with different rules, they're just as legalistic as us
Is it freedom if you're only free enough to think the same
As everybody who thinks the same, or are we free to disagree?
From hidden agendas, they wanna sample you
Erring on the side of compassion and set against the proof
It's difficult to be consistent with your principles
The only thing that seems to be wicked is calling something wicked
It's hive minds with blind eyes holding public opinions
"Let me check in with my tribe to see what I should think today"
We on some repost activism that's trash to me
They shot our elders with hoses but y'all blast the feed
Most ain't built to hold a boycott for a year plus
Got them good George Floyd tears out, now back to us
A slew of Black men without fathers that need approval
We saw our worthiness to speak on theology through you
You saw a safe Black face to work as a mascot
All that Greek and Hebrew but can't learn how to read the room
All these prophetic words, and can't discern a con man
If we let y'all tell it, Christ got up waving a Union Jack
I used your thoughts to disciple me but you lied to me
Half what y'all call modesty culture's misogyny
Can't come with a straight answer, just dodging me
All kinds of excuses not to choose to give a crap
When the hands that we lift in prayer together can't save us from cop bullets
God pull these unjust scales off of our eyes

Thought it was what I needed
Swore that I believed it
But it was just a lie

Gave it everything I had
Until it drove me mad
But truth can't be denied

Thought it was what I needed
Promise that I believed it
But it was just a lie

Gave it everything I had
Until it drove me mad
But truth can't be denied