Thanks For Coming

I'm a phony
Church got me out here acting holy
I do this solely for myself
And I'm done conforming
I do it well
Made some money off my sales
Paid my bills
Am I performing or carrying out a will?

Let's keep it real
What's true to myself?
I have a dream, no Doctor King
What drives to push and compel?
Yes I do it for wealth
It's all so I can live well
But in the end, I have no friends
And In that realm I'll excel

It seems I live in doubt
Holy moly, go around
Doing donuts, losing focus
Acting Holier than thou
Look at me now
It's all for clout
Ran out blessings
Not a shroud
I'm really broken, can't you notice?
Heart is shattered in a thou

My heart is scattered in a crowd
I do my best to pour it out
I Took a leap, that's getting boring
Keep that story to yourself
Swore I was soaring, not important
Seems my vision got distorted
I'm a whore for some adoring
And I haven't figured out

So is it worth it?
Do I put enough work in?
Acting greasy for chicken
Came a long way from churches
Strayed away from my purpose
How'd I go from a servant?
Sitting in every service
Feeling more like a serpent

Well there goes my hope, I learned to cope
Of what was on the surface
I'm the king's kaleidoscope
No time to mope
I'm Kinda nervous
If it's all for show, I gotta go
Time to close the curtain
Know that you're a person, not a burden
You're still learning

But that's all in the past
I'm letting go and headed home
Who cares If anyone asks
Sincere the heir to the throne
Don't be scared to be alone
Usse my words and let it show
Old me is dead and gone

Life's a party but I hate the function
Bet a parlay that all y'all bluffing
No ones here for the cheers
I'm so sorry, that nobody's here hardly
Losing peers over the years
Now What a soirée