Surviving the Night

So if my story is coming true
I'm the hero and the monster too
And all that I can really do is make melodies of my memories
And hope my screams will reach you
How will I figure out just what this means
My legs are tired from chasing dreams
And solving problems I create
I could change my mental state if I was awake

Last year I was asleep
To avoid all of the pain
But Time forgot about me
And everything has changed
I just want to see the sky
And remember who I am
I want to live with open eyes
I've decided that I can
I'm waking up

I hate how the negative is all I see
And the thought of walking away is attractive to me
And sometimes I think I've had enough
But could never get enough. I can't live on love

Last year I was asleep
To avoid all of the pain
But Time forgot about me
And everything has changed
I just want to see the sky
And remember who I am
I want to live with open eyes
I decided that I can

I'm happy in my dreams
Because none of this is real
Sleep is the cousin of death
And that's how I wanna feel
No ones coming to the rescue
And I can not stay in here
I'm sick of feeling nothing
I'd rather face the fear
Of waking up
I'm waking up