Deadbolt

You know like
They're so real
Where you can just tell them whatever you want
There are so few
That you know me and my dad
We wouldn't talk about the news or sports or anything
We would actually talk about things
Those moments are so few
That I can remember them vividly in my mind

Yeah I mean and there
There are those conversations that you know you play back in your head
Of of just things that have happened
And I actually found myself doing that a lot
Like some conversations actually happened
And some of them never happened

Yeah
Tossed on the lonely thunder of an uttered word
Tumbling down the rabbit hole
I wish you never heard
"You need to limit yourself"
That's what you said
It cut like a pitchfork coloring me red
I kept your number for a year after that
Texted you one summer don't remember if you texted back
Caught inside love inside my head inside a tesseract
Whiplash from lack of contact made my neck snap
For my next act I became a zombie
I'm the best at making girls loathe me
If I kept track of all the things I failed to say
I'd have a list bigger than a whale okay
Why can't I let go?
Why do unspoken words echo?
I'm still eatin mine al fresco
Trying to kill the silence should've kept my mouth shut with a deadbolt

It's just that that was the only time they actually said what was truly on their minds
Yeah I mean and there are those
Conversations that you know you play back in your head of
Of just things that have happened
And I actually find myself doing that a lot
Like some conversations actually happened
And some of them did not