Maybe I'm a Monster

I'm going in alone
No one to rely on so I'm better on my own
Heaven knows I've tried but you're a stranger to your phone
Bet I won't be calling you
As soon as I find something else for me to do

Home
Could be where the heart is but that's no place I could go
Admit it I mess up but that don't mean I'm always wrong
Sorry I mistreated her
And her
And you
And everyone I knew before I learned

Head in a cloud
I'm laying around
Not making a sound
A sound

Then it wakes the beast
That lives within me
When my vision's blurry
Emotionally

Maybe I lose control
Too much and all
But I can't recall

But that story's been told
With you I was too cold

Maybe I'm a monster
I'm just the worst
And I'll never learn

But I got the memo
And those ways, they are old
Old
Old

Time
Is burning away slowly but it's learning how to fly
And soon a year will pass since she has said her last goodbye
And I'm gonna face it
Better to use it then to waste it

So
Even though I'm over it I know that it ain't done
And all the little things that I wanna be are yet to come
So close I can taste it
Headstrong and sure I will erase it

Maybe I lose control
Too much and all
But I can't recall

But that story's been told
Like you I was too cold

Maybe I'm a monster
I'm just the worst
And I'll never learn

But I got the memo
And those ways, they're so old
So Old
So Old