Jaded

I ain't really trying to sit around all day
Waiting for something to change
I'ma get up go and be on my way
To another road that I may face
And I pay my respect to the past and the ones involved
Even those relationships dissolved
With the ones with the ones
Yeah I thought that I would need the most
Now a days in their eyes might as well be a ghost
Every time we pass by
Can't even look each other in the eye the same no mo(re)
Cause we both know that we're telling lies
Why do we try? Crazy what it do to the space in your mind
Hard to fake when you're hardly feeling great all the time
I've been trying to meditate in-between the lines
And I feel so fine

Just feeling nothing baby call me stupid crazy
But there's levels to the places we can go
And most just aren't willing to go
Most just chilling getting faded
Slip away until we jaded
But this music that we making
Liberation of the soul

Thanks for coming out to the show
My default reply when they say my set was dope
When I step off stage I'm surrounded by folks
In a room full of praise how could I feel so alone?
I don't know lately been deprived of joy
I don't feel like a man I feel I'm more like a boy
All sad cause they fuckin' took away my toy
I don't own a bank account I'm un-self-employed
Oh you know just living my dream
Slanging fifty dollar features giving merch out free
Seven hundred fifty dollar rent plus late fees
Outstanding balance on my utilities
Don't mind me I am J-A-D-E-D
Many years of hard times I've seen
I bleed every time I release my ink
Control-alt-delete and then I rinse and repeat

I'm fucking jaded
So underrated
Full of so much hatred
I'm fucking jaded
Antiquated
Faith has suffocated
Jaded
Jaded
Jaded
Jaded
I'm jaded