Xanorexic

Ringing this maniac but I won't pick up
Wobbly eggs in the bag and they zipped up
Purple got me wilding sipping this big cup
Seen my soul sweating almost made me slip up
Tears of pityness flow down my cheek
Sadness in my voice unable to speak
2016 Felt right at my peek
17 Took a defeat I was weak
Look back at my life where did I go wrong
Go back in time nigga don't write this song
Niggas after me felt like I been tagged
Momma screaming that her son had been stabbed
On the concrete helpless body being dragged
Nigga ain't care but he laughed and bragged
Well keep bragging shots fired zig zagging pants sagging leave ya momma toe tagging
Niggas say my lyricism unbelievable
My family tells me my goal unachievable
Will these prayers that I send be conceivable
Her heart so far away now irretrievable
15 Kicked out but don't know where to go
Who's real and who's not got no friends to show
No food no water nigga moving slow
Black crow in the shadow feeling like a shadow in disguise
Needed to mobilize to much sorrow
Prozac in my hand no need for tomorrow
Dance with Apollo
Popping these percs man I'm way too bravado
Felt like a nigga gon' starve to death
Grim reaper ready to take my last breath
All my life I been a real breadwinner
Didn't wanna go out as a dead sinner
Sorry to Sasha for the shit I said
Mentally on these drug's over my head
Told me I was special told me I was different
Go back to ya momma don't get too drifted
One day on the grammys your name is listed
Your angelic voice made me feel uplifted
I'd rather die then snitch that is solidified
Police be creeping niggas gotta go and hide
On my casket my initials are carved
Stop saying you hungry y'all niggas ain't starve like me on these non forgiving streets
Y'all can afford them suits
Y'all can afford to pay for y'all heat
Y'all can afford to eat
Y'all can afford ya kids a treat
Courtside you can afford them seats
For ya son you can afford them cleats
Sleeping in motel blood over my sheets
Dam
That's the life that God had me living
Broke her heart but still was forgiving
Sorry till this day you was my one only
The streets don' made a nigga feel so lonely
Keep one eye open while sleeping real closely
Every night spent out there became more ghostly
Never felt holy
On the streets kills were so fast never slowly
For the amount of scars I have a trophy
Nobody know me
Only time they do is when they below sea
July 2017 I was devoted
Holiday Inn and my glock nine was loaded
That's where my soul dies my pain is less stricture
Indulge in this liquor while fuckin' a stripper
Why you had to take her mother to cancer
Week later took Samra that ain't the answer
Left her family all alone at home grieving
Waking up miserable life disbelieving
That my life really came to this
Full of pain and deaths no happiness
But I find that bliss inside of a tablet
Treating the flu as I'm treating my sadness
Pleasure the incest blood while their skin's test
Then kill the devil while he scream out Hamlet
Opium makes my laughter cleave
My demon with a priest I feel bereaved
Coming down now reminding myself that I gotta retrieve
Gotta get higher pull out that white ladder will make me believe
Going so brazy I just wanna scream
Painting my face red i'm loving my roll
Colorful polkadots have all control
For your amusement my pain is outsold
Celebrate depression while unconsoled
Youngin be killing the elders no more contenders having them bow they surrender
Run only lasts till white tail line spreads
Blunt in my words go and fuck yo offense
Plan to destroy me don't be so noisy when you catch up to me act like my friend
Nose in white paint you know she wanna dabble
Reached for my piece so a nigga had stabbed her
Dragging the body to Mediterranean
Dumping these plastic bags right off my gallion
You the black sabbath that's in these packets
Snatch me away put an end to this rabbit

I've lost
I've lost control
I've lost
I've lost control
I've lost
I've lost control
I've lost
I've lost control