I Wish, I Am, I Promise

I wish I didn't know bout pain
I wish I didn't know bout stress
I wish I could look into the future
But now i think about it
And I wish about that less
I wish I wouldn't wish about death
I wish never wished about that
I wish I could fuck with out feelings
Man just fuck man just have sex
I wish she never cheated
I wish I wouldn't live in the past
I wish my head weren't such a mess
I wish I could say I'm up next and mean it
For real doe I'm up next
I just wish i could say this out loud
And make my momma proud
But she don't understand so I digress
I wish I was real
So let me be real
I wish I didn't have to flex
Cause I talk about hoes like I got em
But I don't I'm upset with myself
I wish I wasn't born here
See I'm stuck in the hood too
Just my neighbours don't kill people
They kill dreams
Like klick klack boom
I wish I don't bend
To the pressure of my peers
And work a 9 to 5 for 50 long years
I wish my dreams come true
I wish I'm more like me
I wish I'm less like you
I wish I'd be done with wishes
Once I clean my room and I do the dishes
Once I move to LA
Once I make people dance
Once you hear what I say
Once I know my way
Once I get that bag
And I pop the tags
I wish I travel and see more
They say be careful what you wish for

But I am not cautious
I am too naive at times
I am at my best when I'm weaving rhymes
I am not aware of time
So I'm often running late or out of my mind
I am not paying attention
Cause i think about shit beyond comprehension
I am prone to addiction and prone to depression
I am on a mission to perfect my profession
I am more than a minion
To help you establish this kingdom of bullshit and brainwashed cattle
I am fighting a battle
I am not willing to settle
For a box in a building
In a 2nd world nation
To work my ass off
for a huge corporation
In exchange for some change
Bitch I am the change
And I ain't talking pennies
I am making sense
And I wanna make dollars
Gimme champagne for that henny
And when i walk by
You better holla
I am hanging out I am getting high
I m young n im fresh I update the style
I m lazy thats right
But I am working hard
I am stupid sometimes
But i try to be smart
I am the I am
And I wish I was God
But i cannot be god
Still i try

I promise I promise I promise
I will be honest
I promise I won't fall for lies anymore
I promise I won't see the sky anymore
Which means I will write till my fingers get sore
I promise I'm staying inside much more
I promise I'm calm, stressless
I promise I'm collected like taxes
I promise I'm reaching the masses
I promise I'm changing my status
I promise my punches be hittin
I promise this time will be different
I promise I'm making the difference
I promise I haven't forgotten
That people are shady and labels are rotten
I promise I'll get right back at you
I promise ypu will kneel to my statue
Kiss the mother-fucking ring
I promise you're going to hear when I sing
I promise to make you listen my speech
I promise I won't waste time with the words
I promise my actions will get to your nerves
I promise success to myself
And death to the rest
I wish is the past and I am in the present
I promise the world to myself
What's next?