COLDER THAN NORMAL

I'm the only Filipino who don't play piano
Used to be a good boy, now I'm an asshole
No more fucking tears left to cry for
I said "momma what you always lie for?"
How can they even believe in true religion?
Waiting for the right time to pop that new prescription
I'm just tryna make a dollar, the whole fucking system glitching
Fuck it, Rube gon' roll a blunt, n I'ma have to get some hits in
I'm just delaying my eventual crisis
'Cause reflecting ain't enough when I'm not in the action
All my life I ain't serve no purpose
Except my own because no one else making sense
Living free, living wild, but I'm stuck in a matrix
If you tryna pull me out, I was locked, never caged in
And trust me, I know all this shit is still a lot to take in
But trust me, you gon' wanna wish my head was caved in, yeah

The pain that I had
The woman in black
She made me so sad
She made me so mad

The pain that I had (the pain that I had)
The woman in black (the woman in black)
She made me so sad (she made me so sad)
She made me so mad (Ooh)

Ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
Ho-ohh

They always had to tell me "mo' money, mo' problems"
And I ain't never listened, I just gambled it like Jordan
Wearing black air forces, but I ain't never stole it
And I'm 6 days clean from smoking my last spirit
Been tryna make big dreams happen
From madness to sipping on the ocean
Trading shots with a bad ass bitch
Who don't need me every minute cause she can handle her own shit
The selfish man that I am, can barely stick to my plans
When it comes to all the peril, I really don't give a damn
Used to put the homies first, now I take everything I can
'Cause all my life I been shooting shots in the dark with blanks
Moonwalking on they corpse tonight
9 to 5 money, I just lose my sight
The things that I would do to get the things I like and
All the dreams that I could never buy

The pain that I had
The woman in black
She made me so sad
She made me so mad

The pain that I had (the pain that I had)
The woman in black (the woman in black)
She made me so sad (she made me so mad)
She made me so mad (Ooh)

Ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh
Ho-ohh

Stuck in the spotlight
Nothing is alright
Everything is all bright
Everything is all bright
Love in no spotlight
Stuck in the spotlight
Everything is all bright
Nothing is alright

My momma message me every month, asking for forgiveness
She would know the things I felt if she really listened
She wouldn't ask me how I'm doing if she chose anything different than somebody abusive
That's just my perspective, but I guess that it's different
And even though I know the answer, I get all the reasons
But that don't mean I'm mentally in the spot to fully accept it
There ain't a single bit of hatred in my heart, I'm just so fucking jaded

This the way I'm fucking living, can you handle that?
A different world outside your own, there ain't no coming back
7 shots of liquor and a spliff, we branding cognac
And that don't mean we going off and keeping any single cap
They say men are a reflection of the way they was getting raised
Maybe you shouldn't have prioritized getting paid
'Cause now that mothafucka six feet in his grave
And the cigarette burn he gave me as a baby already faded
Every time you see me, you act so starstruck
You may have done this, but you still ain't made a real one
You the only person who's approval I ain't looking on
Because the judgment in your eyes are poor, so I don't give a fuck
I got a lot of baggage and it's all your fault
Doing so much better cause there's more that I got
And I did it all without you, so quit popping up
In my life wit no merits, you ain't known shit about love