I'll Handle the Rest

Picture this
Just a kid, Desk lamp is lit
Noone home, doors locked
Pencil in his grip
Shoe box, sealed lid, papers being hid
Only finding comfort knowing the words were his

Yes there's regrets, It was held to his chest
Hiding is easy, Sharing's more complex
Easier going backward, Z Y then X
That's the only way to be sure to know the steps
Only way of feeling control of what's next
No more surprises, No Jokers in the deck
Secrets held easier, when yours to be kept
Most understood, you've designed every spec

On repeat
Biggie, Em and Kid Kudi
Drew him in, listening, the lyrics he'd study
Making sure, every word of songs like Mockingbird
Could be repeated without a single word slurred

Knowing it was there, Thanks to grandpa Fred
Knowing he could share, but held it in his head
Stopped out of nowhere, hit the breaks with no red
Pretending not to care, in the garbage they went

Convinced it was a phase in the background it sent
Only self praise, confidence was bent
Getting good grades, is how his time was spent
Stuck in his ways, forgot what it meant

Thank you for being the best
And helping get these words off my chest
Thank you for being yourself
It's helping me I'll Handle the Rest

Took a while, but it's back
Plain Smile, Now it's cracked
Long mile, Fast Tracked
Found my style, Look at that

Place packed, no more room
No more lies, just truth
Cannot hide, Pro sleuth
Clever mind, to my youth

Phone booth, constant ring
Picking up, gave me wings
Used to talk, Now I sing
Used to walk, Now running

Funny thing, is how
I was scared, now I'm proud
What I feared, has no sound
Changed a gear, climb that mound

Starting to think without taking that break
How I feel now wouldn't be the same
Can't even count the experience gained
The things I've learned, The things I've seen

It's given me a chance, a chance to show
More importantly, a chance to grow
A chance to know I've become my own
Relationships come and relationships go

Lessons learned from the highs and the lows
Not all things need to be resewn
What I've found is the perfect outlet
Don't know where it'll go but I'm glad to have it

A place to say what I can't always speak
Something that makes me strong, when I'm weak
Giving me my own personal stage
To release these thoughts from my own cage

I can't help it
But feel ecstatic
As I find the right piece
To fit in each beat
The mistake I made when throwing those sheets
They weren't for anyone so I just ceased

But now I know that at the very least
If not for anyone then they're for me
Something back then that I couldn't see
But when the subjects you, you're the best teach

Thank you for being the best
And helping get these words off my chest
Thank you for being yourself
It's helping me I'll Handle the Rest

Mesmerized by the ones with that flow
Paired with lyrics that mean so much more
Than bragging about money and sleeping with hos
So much more deep, ya way past the shore

Talking about the talent of ones' like J Cole
From track to track don't know where they'll go
Learning from the best like Anderson Paak
And of course Rest in Peace to the Great Mac

Stopped writing one thing didn't go missin
Always made sure that I would still listen
To all that talent that can hop on a beat
And pull you right in to the edge of your seat

Let me take you back just one more time
To a house occupied by four guys
Listening to music was always on the mind
Being in that place, well It's a Vibe

Here's a Crown, Hold it up, You're number one
Understand, Growing Up, is never Done
Inspirations, The Foundations of our own Creations
If it not here now it'll come with our patience

Happy to have the ones that I do
Family and Friends, there's none better than you
I wouldn't have this, Believe me it's true
There isn't anything that I couldn't do

Picking me up when falling to the ground
When needed, You're always around
No more fears of sharing my sound
Feeling like I'm on the 9th cloud