Lifeline

I'm calling
But I haven't got much to say
But right now you seem just like the place
To waste a day

Oh, the older we get
Seems the more they'll expect
So I pretend it's a time
Where it's fine I'm not together yet
Where I can forget

Tell me
Am I hard to recognize?
Or can you still see the dreamer you knew
In these world-weary eyes?

Back when the future
Wasn't heavy on my heart
Wherever it'd take us
We couldn't wait to be part
So just when did this start?

When I run to you
I'm running away from me
All these things that I know I should do
To become someone
That I'm proud to be
I know this ain't real
And it ain't right
To expect you'll drop everything
To be by my side
To throw me your lifeline
And pull me through the night

Another sun down
A sorta panic
I can't quite explain
This cold sweat
Searching for dawn
Through these thin window panes

Is it coming too fast
Or going too slow
Where have I been all my life?
'Cause sometimes I don't know
Stuck in this undertow

And it's not true
When I call 'em
"The good old days"
We watched the world burn
Oblivious that we were
Going down in the blaze

But how it all flew by
While my back was turned
I hang my head to cry
While "What if?"s and "What now?"s whisper
They say "Have you really learned?"

Yeah, when I run to you
I'm running away from me
All these things that I know I should do
To become someone
That I'm proud to be
I know this ain't real
And it ain't right
To expect you'll drop everything
To be by my side
To throw me your lifeline
And pull me through the night

I'm over crying
For the time I spent blind
To the beautiful things
All around
I'm here now
And I've found I'm finally beginning to see
However slowly
This
This ain't the end for me

When I run to you
I'm running away from me
All these things that I know I should do
To become someone
That I'm proud to be
I know this ain't real
And it ain't right
To expect you'll drop everything
To be by my side
To throw me your lifeline
And pull me through the night