Lovenote

To this day, I still think about you
After all, I remember everything too
After every little thing that we been through
My heart stayed pure and my love for you is true

I wish you knew what you could've had
You was always on my body, was a comrade
But then you treat me like a child with a deadbeat dad
That when my heart broke, my heart cracked right in half

Before I knew you I was calm, I was so serene
That one night went left, like a movie scene
Then you had me going crazy like a dope fiend
Clown outfit, everyday was Halloween

If you confused then why you couldn't say that
You kept fucking with that bitch and she was so wack
Couldn't cook, clean, and she didn't have a bag
You was so blind, you couldn't see the contrast

You couldn't see the contrast and it's beyond me
Can't control your heart but you would've had all of me
Someone to rub you, to love you, to kiss you
Support you, transform you, mentor you and miss you

The way you ghosted me I should've called you Casper
Should've moved on, start the next chapter
Amber alert, imma kidnap her
Cause I don't wanna hear about how you wanna smash her

They told you it's a sin to play on my team
But they don't know what the hell God really means
Your actions speak and they louder than your words
Maybe I'll be yours in another world

If I could turn back time I would do some things different
Rewind into the past, be upfront when you would listen
Probably would be present Facetiming at every minute
But now I'm in the future and I can't let you in it

Am I better off alone?
You ain't picking up the phone
Why can't you just let me talk to you
You don't see it, but I know
I'm the one for you
Baby

You got me sick in the head
All the back and forth, things left unsaid
My girls tell me you ain't worth it
But in my head, painted you like you're perfect

Should I trust you or them
I'm confused
Your broken promises left my heart bruised
And something's telling me you not gonna change
Fantasizing what could be has me deranged

Your fear is holding us back
I have everything she lacks
In my face you make me feel yours
But in the race she's the one that scores

Praying to the Lord for brighter days
Praying to the Lord that you would stay
Praying to the Lord that you realize that I'm not just some whore that you throw away

I wish upon a shooting star
To take me back to that night at the bar
And never smile back when you winked your eye
Since that July, all I do is cry
You wasted my time on purpose
I look back and just think about hurting
You for all that shit that you put me through
But it made me bad and now im serving

On this love note hope you could see
Could've been your ride or die had you chose me