Immortal

I'm about to reveal a lot on this
So, I hope y'all ready
Yee
This shit crazy

Growing up how I did
Every day bad
And you'on expect to grow old
So you'on make plans
For the future
And people tell you that you ain't shit
And at times you believe it
Cause these problems, they ancient
And growing up in poverty
You learn to never take bets
Cause it can go unexpected
So you just gotta the make the best
Of your situation
And never ever say shit
To teachers or guidance counselors
I know for some, that don't make sense
But when shit get bad
You keep it bottled and keep pacing
And every single day
You just grow more anxious
People owed me money
Ain't hit me up, testing my Patience
And I ain't got much left
I'm out here in these trenches
Tryna make Cents
Turn into a dollar
And I only had like eight cents
I grew up in Grand Park
So surviving, and making it out
Is a statement
I grew up in a place
Yeah, where they sensed
If you were a good kid
So life quickly became tense
I had to change up
Feeing like a stranger, in a vague sense
These pills, they alter my will
So, I might take six
Teen, a misguided teen
Yeah, I wasn't awake then
Tried to take my life at 16
Thank, God, that I made it
Woke up thinking it was Wednesday
But it had been days since
I was 16, never made love
But can't say I hadn't been raped yet
Sweet 16
Not how a young girl expect to celebrate it
That's why I say growing up
Every day bad
My mom gave us all she had
We was happy, but she stayed sad
So, I would smile
But deep down, I would pray bad
A single momma, seeing her struggle
It hurt me, and I prayed that
A man would come into her life
But he never did, and I hate that
So I hope to like be her, but not like her
If that make sense
I don't wanna be alone
I want a woman who is patience
And I don't wanna rush it
I wanna let it take
However long it takes, yeah
I love my mom, though
She always geared me towards greatness
I started writing poetry
At age 6
Started performing at 7
She was there for every stage, since
Growing up, I couldn't get C's or B's
Only A's, yeah
As a kid, I used to think
Dang, man that ain't fair
But she saw deep down inside
That I was gifted, and I could take it
As far as it could go
And she was right, I elevated
Now fast forward to 14
When my dad came take his
Kids from mom, I love him
But it still hurts to this day, yeah
I got a lot on my chest
So, I'm about to take it
Back to nine years ago
A college kid
Happy, afraid, and sad
I went to UNF for college
But I wanted to be a Gator bad
Ever since I was a kid
I wanted to live in Gator Land
But I chose to live in Jacksonville
Yeah, I chose to stay instead
My mom got diagnosed with cancer
And that's where she staying at
She died on me before graduation
It caused my heart to break bad
So, I didn't have her
And I didn't have my great friends
It caused my world
To shake bad
It was hard
To shake back
And I never reached out to anyone
I just became bitter, and I became sad
It's kinda crazy
Cause I'm intelligent, but I hate that
I grew up so sheltered
Cause now I had to make it
On my own
I wasn't prepared for life
In a vague sense
But now I'm at the top of my game
Making wages
Doing what I love
But when I was blue collar
Who hollered
Or reached out to say that
I love you, I'm there for you
I'm just happy to say that
I made it
I knew that I didn't have to stay trapped
Lost myself along the way
A few times, but made it back
Treat these beats like my diary
Lay my heart when I lay a track
Hoping someone can relate
When they play my track
It's funny reminiscing
Cause I'm seeing it all, playing it back
And yeah, I envisioned this
Told my SOULJA
At the top, where we gone be hanging at
Cali mountains, big mansion
Is where we going gone be staying at
I called my SOULJA
And I was happy to be say, yeah
Told my Soulja, this that moment
Toss the stove, nigga
Celebratory double backwoods
We bought to float nigga
Everything's Strange Here
But I'ma go with it
Take the Pain, and be poetic wit it
I'm the heavyweight champ
Sitting on the top of ropes wit it
Tryna fight to the top
When Its Dark Out, and it's cold, nigga
I'm making Music to Be Murdered By
And they already know, nigga
It's Must Be Nice to her me spit
Listen to my flow nigga
These Things Happen
I'm just tryna Grow wit it
I'm immortal, Legends Never Die
And I'm the GOAT, nigga
When I step in the room
They take my coat, nigga
Who Dat, it's Empress
Why Not Now, I'm bout to go, nigga
All this racial tension
Got my soul livid
Platinum Heart, tryna connect
To my Roots, but I feel so alone, nigga
Black Hearted Demon
Can't leave the house without my chrome, nigga
Teeth full of golds, nigga
Wrist on froze, nigga
I'm so cold wit it
Ghost writing
Hop on a beat and I just flow it
Never settled for second
Nah, I won't go wit it
I take all the negative criticism
And I just grow with it
To the top, I pray
That's where my hope get me
Y'all gone feel my pain
And I swear that y'all gone tote wit ya
I took the game by the neck
And placed it in a hold, nigga
Told my Savvvy and Josh, cause yo' dream
And don't ever let go, nigga
Won't stop until they know my name
And what they soul spitting
And what my soul spitting
Got so much to claim
Including the throne, nigga
I'm the Empress, not just a queen
I'm the goddess, behold, nigga
I ain't choose myself, God did
I was chosen, nigga
Like the Black Panther
Rest In Peace to Chad Boseman, nigga
It hurt my heart when you pass
I felt my soul cringing
Give a big hug to my mom
And my favorite player, Kobe, nigga
Y'all changed my life
And don't even know it, nigga
I'm pursuing my dreams daily
Just how y'all showed me, nigga
I believe in myself, I know I'm so gifted
Y'all changed reality for young Black kids
But then y'all souls lifted
Yee