I Don't (Believe You)

I swear to god
There's an anchor in my heart
And its harming me

I tear it out
To protest
You're not a part of me

From the anger that never seem to subside
With your words in my head
That tell me to pick a side

We on the same
You too insane
But so be it

I loved you all the same
A shame that you couldn't feel it

You stood on my emotions
Manipulated my feelings

I was buried in the burdens
A person i couldn't be it
Focused on whats told
Your episodes getting old

Bored off one another
I really started to know
That you panicked when i'm leaving
You hated watching me grow

Hated when people told me
What you couldn't control

Took my mind and twisted it
Marketed off our differences
And now you regret it
By sending me all these messages

I know you listen to every word that i speak
While you watch my own RISE
From the other SIDE of a screen

I just want to be left alone for beats and music
I don't want to be reminded of these old abuses

All these things that i suffered and tried to change
For the sake of someone else
Who used me for their own gain

Took-took me forever to shake the doubt
I'll never be the same from
The pain that i had to count

I ain't playing your game homie i'm out
Do us both a favor and keep my name out your mouth

Why don't I believe you
Then why don't I believe you
Then why don't I believe you
Then why don't I believe you

If you could never be forgiven
Then how would you behave?

If tomorrows never promised
What would you try to save

These things that you think you are
This drive and this pain

The things that you fought so hard
Are always here to stay
You told me I would change

Why don't I believe you
Then why don't I believe you
Then why don't I believe you
Then why don't I believe you