M.O.M

I say that I don't care
Wat ppl think or wat
They say
But that's a lie
Because I speak on it
Wen I could've walked away
Don't like no
Dumb ass question
Well actually
I hate questions in all
I like my space
Don't fuck wit many
I'd rather
Be alone
I done
Delt with depression
I was
Talkin to myself
Would doubt myself
Second guessed It
Wen I should've
Used my gut
Say one thing
Nd do the opposite
Mom's like wtf
My Ppls wasn't mad
Just disappointed asf
I slipped up had a baby
Wit a demon from
The realm
17 I caught a felony
Didn't open
My mouth
Just sittin
I'm my cell
Like wat
The fuck
Im goin do now
Anger issues
Workin on em
Or I'll just punch
You in the mouth
I Get real defensive
If Im feelin like
You talking to me crazy
If I don't wanna
Talk about it
Wats the use
I'm Trynna make me
I found like
Hella motivation
After feelin hella lazy
I was stressin on the daily
I was walking through
The valley

But I fought through
Mind holding together
Wit some screws loose
If you don't fuck wit me
Why would I try
And force you
Cause if I don't
Fuck wit you
Im Neva goin fuck
Wit you
That's
Straights facts
And on God
I'll tell
You If you
Need me to
Always in my head
I can hear you
But I don't hear you
It's not goin in
The ear Nd out
It just never even made it
I say that I'm ok
But Drowin in
Every thoughtno one's there but I just really start talking people call
I am Kinda insecure
Cause ppl played round
Wit my heart
I Became best friends
Wit the darkness
No one's there
I just start talkin
Ppl call sometimes
I'll watch it
Made excuses
For my excuses
To the point
I felt so useless
But I'm only human
Fuck it you
Can call me super
Got a dream
Like martin Luther
Choices I was bad
At choosin
Don't like em young
I like em seasoned
You Kno the ones
They call a cougar
Use to be so nice
And naive
Carried everything on
My shoulders
My head is already
A boulder
Lost a brother
My daughter met him
In his casket
Lost my cousin
In the pandemic
Not corona but
Shit hella catgoius
Wait for shit
And won't get shit
Tired of being so patient
People listen nd honestly
They will never
Understand me
I mean Neva
Understood me
Ppl think they really
Kno me come to
Find out neva knew me
Almost hit up
At a young age
And got niggas
Who wanna shoot me
I gotta niggas who
Empty clips
And Cause a whole
MovIe Scene Nigga
And you don't want
That action
No you don't
Want that smoke
Leggo Leggo

This is me
Not hard to get
Along wit
Goofy nd childish
I just like
At have fun
Hold up back up
Don't play wit
My character
Try me nd
Shit can get personal
I'm the same one
To lend
But ain't nobody
Help me up
That shit had me
So fucked up
Don't give a fuck
At the same time
Give a fuck
Gave love but I Neva
Really got loved
Am I wrong
For takin certain
Shit personal
Or do these
Mfs really
Got me fucked up
Go back nd im
Backin up two dubs
Or walk nd havin
Niggas thinking I'mma punk
Man that shit
GOT ME
FUCKED UP