Thinking

I was questioning about what love means
But nikkas was to focused on crushing dem nikkas dreams
I was rolin wit my nikkas but get a call frm my queen
She tell me that she don't understand about this vaccine
Member chillin at gramma house eating turkey and them greens
How the hell you talkin like you grown but you rlly in yo teens
For the Black lives matter protests trump kalls in the marines
For the Capitol Riot he tell em to come in by all means

The way I feel about her man my love is automatic
The pikture in my head makes it feel like its so dramatic
I ask how i caught covid when the symptoms are asymptomatic
I gotta 200 dollar watch i ain out here kappin sayin i gotta patek

The relationship with my pops I don't know where we stand
Man my momma told me that my creation was not planned
So when i was told I had take matters into my own hands
If you thought I would follow them nahh I would be damned

If you asked me where I live I would say a house its not a home
I had too figure out about females and sex all on my own
And I don't got the type of girl that is going to blow up my phone
I was so depressed that I had thoughts of blowing out my dome

As a kid I had a lot of dreams of going and gettin rich
Where I'm from you was gettin killed if you was a snitch
No matter the situation she will never be a bitch
Without her it feel like im on percs it make me itch

I was in a trance for 3 years cause I was contemplating
I wasn't payin attention to nothing man cuz i was concentrating
I would explain all these problems but they so complicated
But they steady havin kids so now look we populating

No matter what I did it felt like it wasn't right
I was in a dark place and I needed to find the light
I had so much built up anger that I always had to fight
When I look ed her in her eyes I could tell her future bright

I was reminiscin about all the memories that we had
I had a bunch of bitxhes tellin me that i was goin out bad
But they was only saying that cause they was mad
You was always there for me when a nikka was out sad

She was willing to do me favors but i said I got it
I had memories of my mom and dad but I forgot it
Hurd a man got killed but we don't know who shot it
My dukes and pops lyin so much had to tell em stop it

So many problems in the world that we can not fix
I would rather be judged by 12 then carried by six
I had a whole girl but was on them other chicks
But right now all I want is my mouth on her lips

Since 2015 I had a lot of thoughts messin with my head
Without my baby I would either be in jail or somewhere dead
Remember layin on the floor kuz i kouldn't afford a bed
Got invited to a party but I would be with my girl instead

I had a dream about my baby and nikkas stackin pape
I ain gon speak on no one else I want everyone to be great
Me leaving my house at 16 was bekause of the problem I had to face
JaNice needed me more then ever because her mind was out of shape

I had a couple nikkas i ain like but man we dropped the beef
Trust me when I say it was like tooka and my boi chief keef
Nahh I ain speakin down on tooka nor my nikka chief
If there is 2 things I hate it is a liar and a thief

This ain't the last of me but for now ya boi is done
I wished my father would aktually treat me like his son
But I guess this one of them battles that I haven't won
So now I can see that the world has finally begun