Lies

In a few years
Maybe I won't wake up sweating
With your face pressed against my eyelids

In a few days
I can talk everything over
With the doctor I paid to discuss you

Until then
I will chew and choke on every moment
That I maybe gave you permission

Part of me hopes
You will text me happy birthday
Perhaps that's my sickest admission

At 17
I thought maybe I could be your Lilith
We were made out of the same soil

Adam I believed
You were one to be admired
All I ever did was adore you

In my lifetime
I had never been so wounded
As the first time when you saw me

As I lied there
With my figure wrapped in cotton
Like a ghost I'd left my body

In the space of who I knew
Stood a godless boy how looked at me
Like a thing he could see through
Did you see me staring back at you

Oh the worst lies are those we tell ourselves
Oh the worst lies are ones we tell ourselves
Oh the worst lies are ones we tell ourselves

On a good day
I fantasize we grab a coffee
You understand how you made me feel worthless

Of all the things
I should be truly disappointed
I am most sad I thought I deserved it

In the space of who I knew
Stood a godless boy how looked at me
Like a thing he could see through
Did you see me staring back at you

Oh the worst lies are those we tell ourselves
Oh the worst lies are ones we tell ourselves
Oh the worst lies are ones we tell ourselves
Oh the worst lies are ones we tell ourselves
Oh the worst lies are ones we tell ourselves



Credits
Writer(s): Lizzie Wilson
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